Amanda Lynn's Blog

I Can Compare

2009-09-29T19:07:00.000-07:00

I know how you feel,
I can compare to your sorrow.
You are wishing fantasies were real,
You are hoping for a better tomorrow.

I know how you cry yourself to sleep at night,
How you have thoughts of that blade ending your existence.
I know how it feels to wonder if you're wrong or right.
How you think about running away and not caring about distance.

But there is no use in letting the worst get the best of you,
There is no use in running away from your issues.
Look at everything in my point of view,
Dilemmas stay forever with you just like tattoos.

Wishing Is Only The Beginning

2009-09-29T19:00:00.000-07:00

I wish you could see,
See inside of me.
I wish you could understand the way I feel,
I wish I could take a dream and make it real.

I want to hide my feelings,
I can't explain why.
My eyes begin to fill with tears,
And I slowly begin to cry.

You tell me you want to say, "I love you,"
I wish you see the look in my eyes.
Are you telling me the truth-
Or is everything nothing but lies?

Lost in my own world of hate,
Wondering, are you worth the wait?
Questions linger in the back of my mind,
But, no answeres are there to find.

As words of hatered and love cross the paths of my mind,
You say you're sorry and the paths are torn apart.
Didn't anyone ever tell you,
Sorry will never heal a broken heart?

For You*

2009-09-22T07:34:00.000-07:00

This poem is dedicated to my best friend Brittany Hallowich<3

When the world is crumbling beneath you,
Just turn to a friend who will always be true.
When you feel like there is nothing you can do,
Remember, I'll always be here for you.
When you feel all alone and helpless,
Don't think you are faithless.
When you have a lot on your mind after a bad day,
Just remember, I'm only a phone call away.

-Amanda Rizzo*

Even Though*

2009-09-22T07:26:00.000-07:00

Even though the moments passed me by,
I still can't turn away.
I still remember the look in you eyes,
As you turned and walked the other way.

Even though I still sometimes cry,
You'll never see me shed a single tear.
I'll keep a smile upon my face,
Everytime you are near.

Even though a part of me hates you,
The other part will always tell me no.
Sometimes I wonder,
Will I ever let go?

Even tholugh I'm confused,
I can't help but stick around.
No one to catch me,
Before I hit the ground.

Even though we still do talk,
I can only be your friend.
There will be a day,
When all this pain will end.

Even though you make me smile,
It makes me want you more.
But that smile goes away,
Once you walk out my door.

Even though I get so mad at you,
I'm always the one to give in.
I try not to let it happen,
But you seem to always win.

Even though I want to say good-bye,
I never go through with it.
I can say it all I want,
But I will never commit.

Even though you still stick around,
I should give up on you.
You do not care about me,
It's time I look in your point of view.

-Amanda Rizzo*

How I Feel

2009-09-22T07:14:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been struggleing with the issue of keeping certain words or comments to myself. I tend to say things as they come out of my mouth without thinking twice. Why do we have random moments of out bursts and just say things as they roll off the tip of our tongues? Why do we hurt the ones we love? I once read and also wrote on my wall in my room that, We ignore the ones who love us, love the ones who ignore us, get hurt by the ones we care about, and hurt the ones who care about us. Ironic isn't it? I seem to have the issue of having out bursts of saying things I do not mean towards another person. Whether it be my mother, a friend, a teacher, family, pets, strangers, ect, I tend to be in a conversation with them and me being the blunt one, I don't think before I act. I really should learn to. I know I am bluntly honest, but sometimes it gets you into a lot of trouble. Though, actions do speak louder than words to me, sometimes my actions need to speak less and my words need to be thought out and looked at before letting them just glide out of my mouth like a child on a wet slide in the summer time. Have you ever felt the same?

Everything I Am For Is Freedom

2009-09-21T07:30:00.000-07:00

I am for the unconditional love of my mother,
Because she is most important in my life.
For the love of my dog in the morning
When she jumps on me to give me a kiss when I awake.
I am for someone who can be true and real to me.
Sometimes I stress over life-
And I am for a break.

I am for writing poetry and relaxing.
For singing and dancing to songs I enjoy.
I am for someone who can make me laugh.
I am a girl who writes her feelings on paper to show anger, passion, happiness, and disappointing expressions.

I am for being myself and only myself.
For showing feelings and hiding some.
I am for being able to speak my mind,
As I am for freedom.